Creator of own self and projector of the others

Reading my past is something interesting for me.
I remember all those feelings when I write something down.
But then I also see my own changes over the time.
From constant talking about the same thing until talking about my own life.
I know I am not over it, but I am definitely moving on.

Under the dark clouds and sprinkle rain,
I let myself soaked in the cold Pacific ocean this weekend.
My thoughts were clear.
I've secretly made up my mind.

When we are in love, we tend to make the other half "the one".
The image of "the one" can be created by the blindness of love affair.
Until the day the story ends.
Suddenly "the one" is no longer "the one".
Then we realize that we are the maker of our own self and the creator of the others.

Vianne

Vianne's story began 8 years ago.
Then, she was all naive and pure.
She was put in a whole new world where there were lots temptations.
One night, she got to her feet, took the offer from the devil.
She fell right into the trap with no one watching.

Within two short months, Vianne learned how to play the field.
She also learned to deal.

Vianne got to be very good with this new game,
and began her travels and experiences in the world.
She thought, she was simply enjoying her youth and beauty.
She went on seeing so many places and meeting so many people.

8 year later, Vianne became tough and independent.
At least that's what others think who she is.

She was once told that she was too strong that the man she loved cannot protect her but to leave her.
She was also told that she seems able to handle difficulties in life, so it is all right to leave her alone.

Vianne did learn a lot over the 8 years.
So much that she realized that there is something important for her have gone missing.
But she is too tough and strong so that no one believes her.

She laughs together with friends during the day,
She cries alone with herself during the night.
8 years has passed by...

Vianne is no longer naive nor pure.
She is left with deep sadness, emptiness and built a huge wall inside her.

Vianne's story continues 8 years later
She knew that the story cannot be finished, not now.
Because "she" is that something important which have gone missing.

I learn something today

Never try to go forcing some jerks to un-jerkify,
Because you will fail.
The best way to deal with jerks is not to even bother dealing with jerks at all.

I can't say more, but I suddenly understand it all.
Doesn't matter how good a first impression can be,
if you don't work on it, the other bad impression will definitely catch up.

So, allow me to say this:

You,
Are So Fired.

Good luck on your soul searching, I have no time to waste anymore.

Nervous

Peace out in 9 days,
I am a bit nervous.
It might not be a good idea.
Afterall, I tried so hard to get to where I am now.
Will the trip destory it?

So bad that I stop writing if you noticed it.